# The Circus

Oh, how differently this "Thank you" reads from the one earlier—how bitter, how nostalgic. And truly, who can’t feel the dejection in that pitiful send-off "best of luck"?

I don’t mind when people fail. If someone has a really good joke that failed, and they come back next week and they worked on it and it’s better, I can see that they saw the failure, and they know how to learn from it.

The Business Lady pressed her on what her favorite shows and toys were and proceeded to tell her the prospects of the corporations behind them.

I marched in a direction of which I knew not, filling me with a positivity that was only matched by its notorious bedfellow, negativity.

Remember, I’m a comic. I don’t have all the answers, but I will always have an opinion.

“All we really have is what we make and put out. And that’s the only stuff I enjoy doing.”

I just want­ed to write about a chick who’s into the ocean, then I men­tioned hero­in, and you judged me, and I went on an apolo­getic at­tempt that be­came in­fest­ed with pol­i­tics, doubt, and a lack of cre­ative juice.

Well, that’s the most difficult part of the story to address. There was something so dehumanizing about the whole enterprise.

I have no reason to be scared of anything, ever. 2018 could have been a death punch to me as a comedian. That kind of beating is almost unheard of as a stand-up comic. But I proved to myself that I can rise up to the biggest occasions.

With stand-up, it's one of the purest forms of art. It's just you, on a stage, and you better make the crowd laugh.

I asked if they would show me that this was in­deed real by do­ing a chore­o­graphed dance of some sort. Im­me­di­ate­ly, I was treat­ed to an in­cred­i­ble version of the Broad­way Hit Chica­go. The play was nev­er crisper or tighter or more brazen.

I’m not necessarily interested in partying with people who are only doing it out of obligation or cause “it’s the thing to do.” I want people who are committed. Don’t show up to the Super Bowl asking “Who’s playing?”, or “What’s this about again?”